Cause that's not the world i live in.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vZpDzrfxAt0

My World- 3 Doors Down

So. I really can't wait until summer. Hell. I can't wait till i'm 25. Least then i can drive. And maybe my brain won't be....me.

"Your stuck on a chain
And your toeing a lie
Seems like everytime that you catch up
You only fall behind"

See, i think it's natural to go into these little funk filled days. Or in this case week(s).

"And your trapped inside this world you made yourself
but that's not the world I live in
this is not the life for me
cause my world is bigger than your problems
and it's bigger than me"

Now, generally i wouldn't bring all my own stuff to this blog. And i don't plan to! But. This is my space. If y'all read it, and enjoy it? Well. That's great. But certainly be prepared for these musing posts.

"There is always someone to blame
for the things you do yourself
you think that everything that's going wrong
is because of someone else"

Cause really, i use this blog to vent, and to put my thoughts out there. And i'm gonna continue to! Cause i will NOT be a kid that keeps all that stuff inside. That's not me. That is not my World.

"it's not the world I live in
this is not the life for me
cause my world is bigger than your problems
and it's bigger than me"

And i'm sorry. I truly am, that i act quiet and closed off sometimes, but it's how i deal with everyday, and not so everyday stress. It's just a system i have. I don't like it when i feel this way, but it usually works.

"cause i'm lonely outside and i'll look on in"

Because i WANT to be able to keep a handle on things. I don't WANT to feel bad or sad for no real reason. But. It's normal. And the fact that i can recognize that now, and not turn this into a huge rant is a sign. Of what? I dunno. Still. It's a sign.

"And that's not the world I live in
this is not the life for me
cause my world is bigger than your problems
and it's bigger than me"

And i really hate that i can affect the people close to me when i dont act like myself. Cause i understand there's quite a contrast between normal-happy-smiley-Sam and sad-Sam. I understand this. And i hate that i can bring others down. Cause that's generally not my goal. And i also don't like that this is another 'sad' post. But y'know? Oh well. Maybe it helped.

And.

"it's not the world I live in
this is not the life for me
cause my world is bigger than your problems
and it's bigger than me
cause my world is bigger than your problems
and it's bigger than me..."

Peace

~Sam

Sun Fishing

So. This is a song i wrote. And. I dunno if it's ever gonna make it past the concpet-chords-singing-stage. But. I rather like it, and i figured it was time for a new post. So here yah go!

'Sun Fishing'

Saw an old man lying in the bottom of his boat
One hand on his fishing pole, the other on his throat
And as he looks up to the morning, stormy sky
He see's the sun shining down like the best thing in his life

He say's, "I'm alright today, I'm gonna be just fine."
And today could be the best day of the rest of your life
So come on on smile now you're gonna be just fine

Gotta let those tears fall down, wipe 'em off and cry

Well, saw a young man running through, running through the street
Flashlight between his hands, his heart, it's very weak
He sees you running down, running down the hill
You leap into him and your hearts begin to heal

She say's, "I'm alright today, we're gonna be just fine"
Cause bad things, they come and go, acceptance comes in time
And i know you're angry now, but you're gonna be just fine

Break your heart to pieces, just to see you cry

It's all right

Cause an old man came to me, said the sun is here to stay
Get out your dreamin' mind, just move into the fray
Cause it's gonna be alright today, it's gonna be just fine
And today's the tomorrow of the yesterday of your life

You say: "I'm alright today, i didn't even cry"
And if i break my heart to pieces, well maybe i'll just die
But i'm alright today! I'm gonna be just fine

Well the sun is out today, shining through the sky
Shining down, healing you, in the corners of your mind
Well i'm better now I'm gonna be just fine
Says the old man, sun fishing all the time

Sun fishing

All the time




And there yah go! See. It reads kinda disjointed, but it sounds alright! And. The basic idea behind this is basically a song about how the singer can't seem to hold on to the happiness he's found, and how he's always 'sun fishing'. I think at least in this song, the 'sun' translates literally to the happiness this guy just can't find, or can't hold on to.

And that's...that's about it!

And. Here's YOUR song!

Sex and Candy- Marcy Playground
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YDAXltfj8-Y

Enjoy!

Peace

~Sam

Return of the RAMBLE POST!!

Righto. This one has no point. At all. So tell yah what, here's your song:

"Well you looked right down, took up my hand, and you looked just like an angel. Yes, an angel"

Worlds Fallen- Uncle Chunky

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vfy_wub6uuY&feature=related

And now i can just...type.

The past few days have been something great novels are made of, teen angst! And lots of it! Not that they've been bad. Oh no. These past few days have been great, this whole Spring Break has been great. But, i don't really know what's up inside my brain at this point. I know that everything's gonna turn out just fine, and in a day or so i'll be feeling completely different, but....blargh.

See, i KNOW i have a great life. And any normal/sane/rational person would be overjoyed to be where i am right now. But naaahhh...apparently that's just my thing. But, really all i can do is put on my special smile, get up tomorrow, and throw myself back into the swing of things.

I'm actually excited to be going back to school.

Ooooh boy.

Peace

~Sam

Less than three!

I'm listening to the String Quartets version of Bad Religion's 'American Jesus' it's Easter Sunday, i've just had one of my better days all Spring Break, and these past weeks have been better than i can ever remember things being.

I guess, i'm not used to a consistent level of just...happiness, i mean sure, there are those good days, and those moments of euphoria and i still have those. But, just the ever present happiness...well, it's pretty nice.

So! This is a a short post, and i've spent the last hour typing a few words here and wasting time on Facebook.

Oh well.

"I'm just a guy with a guitar
singing a song for you
I'm just a man with a musical vibration flowing through"

Mishka- Guy With A Guitar

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=buwJoXaa81c&playnext_from=TL&videos=1GKu-Uv76r8

Happy Easter, everybody!

Peace

~Sam